I often wake up in the middle of the night- sometimes it’s just because my arm has fallen asleep and I need to change the position in which I’m lying, sometimes it’s because now that I’m married I have another person in the bed with me who also tends to shift multiple times in the night and on occasion steals the covers, and other times it’s because I hear what sounds like an intruder in my house and I can never decide if the noises were in real life or in my dream. But this time was different. Although my middle of the night wake up actually occurred at 7 AM, since I had taken time off from work to spend with my husband, I wasn’t quite ready to wake up yet. But something told me I should get up and told me exactly what I should do once I was out of bed. After I checked the time on my phone I wanted to roll back over and try to fall back into peaceful slumber, yet I felt a still small voice urging me to go read. And not read just anything, but to read the story of the ‘Sacrifice of Isaac’ in Genesis 22. And so I did.
For those that have kept up with my blog since the beginning, you may recall that I’ve actually written a post on this text before (see Are we passing the test?), but this time I’m seeing it in a new light. In light of the news given to our family about my unborn niece Emma Grace (see my sister’s blog For the Love of Emma Grace), I can’t help but think of God’s urging for me to read this text as a reminder that He is in control. All the time. Always has been. Always will be.
So I will re-post some of my previous recap from this Bible text, while also adding in the implications it has for me at this time in my life.
Story background: The Lord made a covenant with Abraham & Sarah that many nations would come from them, despite the fact that Sarah was barren. Even after this covenant was made, Abraham & Sarah waited many years for these promises to come to fruition in the form of their son Isaac, through whom Abraham’s offspring would be reckoned.
Our story begins with Isaac as a young lad: the blessing from God that Abraham & Sarah had spent time waiting (and waiting and waiting) for. I can only imagine that Abraham & Sarah’s joy was so abundant now that their long awaited son was finally here, and the promise of Abraham’s descendants being as numerous as the stars (see Genesis 15:5-6) was at last playing out according to God’s plan. And yet in an instant all could change.
In order to confirm Abraham’s faith and trust, God tests him by telling him to take his son Isaac (his “only son, whom he loves”- see Gen. 22:2) to the land of Moriah and offer him as a burnt offering. And despite how absurd this request may have seemed, considering Isaac was to be the one through whom God’s covenant would be fulfilled, Abraham responded in obedience and set out the next morning do as the Lord had commanded.
I sit here and think about just the beginning of this story, and the significance of what God had told Abraham to do. God had not asked Abraham to sacrifice something he wouldn’t mind giving up, like maybe a goldfish or potted plant- something that really wouldn’t have phased him much to have to get rid of. God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son, his only son, the son he loved, the son that all Abraham’s hope of being the “father of many nations” rested upon.
Our story continues with Abraham preparing for the burnt offering:
– altar built- check!
– wood on the altar- check!,
– son bound and laid on the altar- check!
And yet, at the moment Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son, an angel of the Lord intervened by calling out to Abraham, telling him not to do anything to his son, for the Lord saw that because Abraham did not withhold his son (his only son, whom he loves) from Him, Abraham truly does “fear the Lord”- meaning he has reverential trust in God and commitment to his revealed will (word). The Lord then provides a ram for Abraham to use for the offering instead of his son, and Abraham called the name of that place Jehovah-jireh: the Lord will see or the Lord will provide (and that He does!). The angel of the Lord then said “By myself I have sworn, declares the Lord, because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, I will surely bless you, and I will surely multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and as the sand that is on the seashore. And your offspring shall possess the gate of his enemies, and in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.” (Gen. 22:16-18).
Even in the moments when it’s hardest to trust the Lord, and seems foolish [to some] to venture on a path where the outcome is unknown, we know God has wisdom and insight far beyond anything we can comprehend, and we know God loves us, cares for us, protects us, and provides for us. Therefore we have all the assurance we need if we place our full trust in him and his plan for us.
Now, how this passage from God’s word pertains to my family at this time… To my knowledge, God has not promised my sister and brother in law many nations, or nations as numerous as the stars. But he did bless them with the news that they were expecting their first child, Laney Faith, almost a year after a doctor told them it “would be really hard for her (my sister) to have children”. And they’ve not taken that blessing lightly, but have worked to trust, obey, and honor the Lord with this blessing he’s given them. And when the news of baby #2 (Emma Grace) came just shy of a week after Todd and I got married, that too was nothing short of a ‘God thing’ to a couple who’d been told conception would not come easy. Now here we are… due to some challenges Emma is experiencing while she’s still in the womb, the doctors have not given her a high rate of survival. And yet our family still has an overwhelming sense of peace and comfort in this time. How is that even possible? It’s definitely not anything related to our own strength, but solely because we have a God, the one and only God, who provides us with strength when we’re weak, comfort when we’re sad, peace when we’re worried, hope when the outcome looks grim, and who loves us unconditionally. We don’t know what the outcome will be in this situation but we trust in God’s plan, knowing this too, like everything else, is in His hands- his loving, gentle hands. I’m amazed at the strength and peace my sister and brother in law have at this time- still worried about their precious unborn daughter Emma, but trusting in the Lord’s plan.
So I’ll close out today with a few things to ponder on…
– In what area(s) of our life is the Lord calling for us to trust him more?
– Is our obedience contingent upon whether or not it’s easy or convenient for us to follow and trust Him, or do we seek and follow Him no matter how hard the cost?
– Do we proclaim the name of the Lord only with our lips, or are our actions in line with our profession that he IS our God and we will follow where He leads us?
This can be very tough stuff to chew on, but necessary and extremely beneficial in the sanctification process: sanctification “brings the believer into living contact with the truth, whereby he is led to yield obedience ‘to the commands, trembling at the threatenings, and embracing the promises of God for this life and that which is to come'” (excerpt of sanctification definition from Bible Dictionary).
Lord, I pray that through learning more about your character, we would continue to trust you more fully with all areas of our life, and that through doing so, you would bring us into a deeper relationship with you. I pray that both our words and actions would glorify you, and that we would learn to walk with you in all things. I thank you for your many blessings, and praise you because you are good. I also thank you for the struggles you’ve helped us through, because they’ve helped us to grow, learn more about you, and walk closer with you. Thank you for sacrificing your son- your only son, whom you love- so that we may have the free and undeserving gift of grace, should we have faith. Amen.
(Below are 2 songs whose lyrics resounded in my mind as I was reading through and reflecting on this story in Genesis)
BLESSED BE YOUR NAME (by Matt Redman)
Blessed be Your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Oh, blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say, Lord
Blessed be Your name, Lord
IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul!
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.